I feel like I can relate to your story alittle bit. My husband and I met online. He was stationed in another state 12 hours south of me. I was still attending school and at the time we met I had a year left to graduation. We married in July ’09 and I graduated in Dec ’09. Between July-Dec we kept our separate residences for my schooling purposes. When I graduated he flew up and we packed up my car and drove “home” together. That was when our marriage really started. My husband was at station that could deploy at any time, day, night, holiday, etc. When they called he had to be ready. Most deployments were planned and lasted a few weeks. but the first deployment I endured alone in our apartment, now pregnant with horrible morning sickness was a huge wake-up call to what being a military wife can entail. Luckily, my husband was home for the birth but he was gone a total of 4 months throughout my pregnancy.
We are now at a new station, where he is on a huge boat that deploys every 2 months. For the most part it is a literal schedule of 2 months home, 2 months gone, etc. Now with a child who doesn’t recognize Daddy when he comes home, its hard. I have been a few long distance relationships in the past but with things like skype and simple phone calls can help ease the pain. On the boat, we get email. That’s it. He calls when they dock somewhere but mostly its 0-2 emails a day. Waking up to an email inbox is heartbreaking.
I know my story is alittle different that yours, and I can completely relate to your missing him and the frustration of wondering when your marriage will really start. God choice you for your husband because he knows you are strong enough to handle this. School is keeping you busy, and as hard as it is, use that as your outlet. Throw yourself into school to stay busy. My outlet is church and my son, but I’ve been in positions where there was no outlet at all. If you haven’t yet read GOD Strong: A Military Wife’s Spiritual Survival Guide by Sara Horn, I highly recommend it. It really talks you through deployment and it has lots of story from other service wives. I hope I have helped or at least eased your mind. You are not alone in this. God Bless!

thats beautiful